Frustrated

So for almost a year now i've been quiet, supportive and laid back about the whole situation of my husband not working.  He was laid off back in March and has yet to find work.  I'm starting to panic now.  I feel pressure of being the only person working..and the fact that i'm furloughed has really not helped at all!  I am literally making a poverty level salary right now...i'm pretty sure of that.  Then my medical insurance went up and put me even that much farther behind.  The situation of knowing that I will NEVER make more money in my current position is very frustrating...yet I can't risk finding another job in this economy where I will end up bottom of the totem pole with no status should layoff come up.  At least where I work, it would take a while for them to get to me should layoff's arise.  I should be feeling grateful that I have SOMETHING...yet i'm not.  I'm currently having a pity party.  And I think I deserve it.  I've spent a year ignoring the severity of the situation and keeping a positive attitude and recently its hitting me that I feel too much pressure and I am not happy with the current situation.  My husband is in NO way to blame.  He's a hard worker.  He spends every single day looking for work only to come up with dead ends.  I'm SURE this is even more frustrating for him.  He gets passed up all the time by others who either have more experience or don't have a strong latin accent.  YES i'm sure he's been discrminated against because of this.  And these are $10 an hour jobs and he's still not getting them.  The economy is horrible right now.  I'm feeling pressure to find a part time job to ADD to my full time job.  No one is asking me to do this, but i'm feeling that I should.  This will all be very sad for me as it will mean less time with my husband and my 3 year old son.  But what else am I to do?  I can't force people to hire my husband.  Its all out of my control and that just makes me feel helpless.  I think my recent bantering of wanting to leave California so badly lately is MOSTLY due to this....this and my EXTREME fear of earthquakes...I should never have been born in California for this fact...seriously.  But that is a whole other story.  I just don't know what to do right now.  Things at this point seem helpless to me.  I told you I was having a GIANT pity party.  But right now that's where i'm at.  Maybe in a few days or a month i'll crawl out from underneath my pity party...but right now i'm there.  Table for one.